On the 1st Anniversary of Jan's Passing...

On the first Anniversary of Jan’s passing

4-21-2007

Jan, at about this time last year, as I lay sleeping beside you, you slipped away. My heart is still numb and heavy with the sense of sad loss that I felt when I looked for a pulse that wasn’t there and watched for a breath that never came. I remember kissing your head and asking God to take the very best care of you in your new and blessed world.

There is no measure of gratitude that I can offer that will ever satisfy the debt of love conferred on me by the grace of your presence in my life. The spirit of your love is still powerfully with me as every day I remember and feel the strength and consolation of your presence. You were always with us when we needed you. When I remember your devotion to meeting our family needs, I am still profoundly overwhelmed with love and sadness. You are as much visible, and appreciated more now in your physical absence, than I was ever able to meaningfully convey to you when we were sharing our earthly journey. Through you came the gifts of Veronica and Tyler. And their presence in my life is a constant reminder and reflection of the goodness, kindness and caring that were and are the sum total of your selfless gift of love to me and them.

On this day, Jan, and everyday, I remember you with prayers of love and sadness and sometimes tears. Always with deep feelings of gratitude and a loving remembrance of your presence in my life. I remember you now the way you always remembered me,
XO,
With all my love
Pat