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Saturday, April 21, 2007
On the 1st Anniversary of Jan's Passing...
On the first Anniversary of Jan’s passing
4-21-2007Jan, at about this time last year, as I lay sleeping beside you, you slipped away. My heart is still numb and heavy with the sense of sad loss that I felt when I looked for a pulse that wasn’t there and watched for a breath that never came. I remember kissing your head and asking God to take the very best care of you in your new and blessed world.
There is no measure of gratitude that I can offer that will ever satisfy the debt of love conferred on me by the grace of your presence in my life. The spirit of your love is still powerfully with me as every day I remember and feel the strength and consolation of your presence. You were always with us when we needed you. When I remember your devotion to meeting our family needs, I am still profoundly overwhelmed with love and sadness. You are as much visible, and appreciated more now in your physical absence, than I was ever able to meaningfully convey to you when we were sharing our earthly journey. Through you came the gifts of Veronica and Tyler. And their presence in my life is a constant reminder and reflection of the goodness, kindness and caring that were and are the sum total of your selfless gift of love to me and them.
On this day, Jan, and everyday, I remember you with prayers of love and sadness and sometimes tears. Always with deep feelings of gratitude and a loving remembrance of your presence in my life. I remember you now the way you always remembered me,
With all my love
Saturday, May 27, 2006
Saturday, May 27, 2006-4:15PM Arizona time
Today we gave Jan's earthly remains back to the earth from which they came. Myself, Veronica, Tyler and two of the friends(Calvin and Vicki) who biked with jan on the desert roads near where we live, scattered her ashes from a small hill overlooking the biking trails whose sudden dips and wily turns meant so much to her in the last years of her life.
KA7ETU (thats me) said a final goodbye to KD7SIJ(thats Jan) on the Amatuer radio frequency she used to call me, when she decided to rest and wanted to connect with a desert story or a moment of special interest. Farewell, KD7SIJ, "I will now be clear, but I'll be listening". We will never forget you, our loving "silent key."
Thursday, April 27, 2006
Thursday, April 27, 2006-9:18PM Arizona time
The final leg of Jan's journey took us to her
Memorial service held earlier tonight at the Heritage
Chapel. We celebrated Jan's life with tears and laughter
and an abundant measure of hope and joy. Thank you for
the memories and the stories and the consolation of
your presence and support.
And so the blog of Jan's Journey ends just inside the doorstep
of heaven where a new angel is testing her wings with joy
and remembering her friends with a smile.
Jan, Pat, Veronica and Tyler
Saturday, April 22, 2006
Saturday, April 22, 2006-7:46PM Arizona time
This will be the next to last "Whats up with Jan" blog. The final blog will be written after the Memorial service on Thursday.
There has been so much kindness extended to our family both when Jan was alive and now after she is gone that we are overwhelmed by everyone's loving and devoted attention to our needs. Veronica, Tyler and myself are very grateful for and appreciative of the support we have received during this very sad time for which there really is no adequate preparation. Jan loved this blog and the support she received through it. In parting, we extend her love to you, and wish you all-the grace of beautiful lives and the love of shared friendships that made this blog a place to come to when we were feeling down and needed the support of friendly souls to lift us up to more than we could be.
With love and gratitude always,
Jan(She would want her name to be here), Pat, Veronica and Tyler.
Friday, April 21, 2006
Friday, April 21, 2006-6:37PM Arizona time
We are still grieving beyond words that can measure the depth of our sorrow and tears.
Jan's obituary will run in the Arizona Republic on Tuesday and Wednesday the 25th and 26th of April. A memorial service will be held at Heritage Chapel, 6830 W. Thunderbird Road, Peoria,Arizona 85381, on Thursday, April 27 at 6:00PM.
Thanks to you all for the beautiful expressions of caring, love and kindness in the blog comments, and in many personal emails and telephone calls. You have eased our pain more than you know....
Friday, April 21,2008-3:37AM Arizona time.
It is hard to write this message and know what to say.
Jan passed peacefully away at about 1:30AM this morning.
We are very sad at her passing, but relieved that her suffering
is no more. We said beautiful goodbyes and shared a love
we will miss more than words can tell.....
Thursday, April 20, 2006
Thursday, April 20, 2006-6:43PM Arizona time
Jan is slipping more and more deeply into a comatose like state. She rarely responds to family or visitors , but occasionally becomes lucid enough to say just a few words. She is not choosing to eat or drink anything, and we are administering liquid morphine and atavan at least every hour. The usual abominal drainage produced 650cc and another 650cc was drained out of a recently installed urinary catheter.
Kim Richards said goodbye today, and this morning Veronica and Tyler laid by her side and held her hand. I have a very hard time thinking about any part of our life together without crying. There is something sweet about this sorrow because it is the wonderful memories that bring the tears, but, at times, the hurt is almost too much to bear.....